Fairytale Dreams

One month to go and I'm turning 18. Should I be excited or not? Yes, I'm getting giddy for that, but everytime I think about our family's situation, I'm getting hopeless.

I dreamt of having a fairytale themed debut. I wanted a glittering, nude ball gown paired with a glass shoe like Cinderella's and my hair like Princess Belle's (Beauty and the Beast). And, I wanted it to be in a wonderful garden filled with lights and flowers like Snow White's garden. I have listed my 18 roses, 18 candles and 18 gifts already. I also designed my invitation and planned the programme, too. But, all of that would just be in my dreams.

I know that, maybe, it could never happen now because there are a lot of things that should be accomplished first. But, I still hold on to my faith that I could celebrate my birthday with the most important people in my life, even in a simple party. You may think that I'm too shallow but for an only child who have employed parents, this is an important thing. Oh, well..

I believe that I deserve to have a celebration on my birthday, the day that I would be a lady. I would just wait and look forward for some miracles to happen. I know God has something for me and He would not fail me.

Happy, advanced, birthday to me!