Fairytale Dreams

One month to go and I'm turning 18. Should I be excited or not? Yes, I'm getting giddy for that, but everytime I think about our family's situation, I'm getting hopeless.

I dreamt of having a fairytale themed debut. I wanted a glittering, nude ball gown paired with a glass shoe like Cinderella's and my hair like Princess Belle's (Beauty and the Beast). And, I wanted it to be in a wonderful garden filled with lights and flowers like Snow White's garden. I have listed my 18 roses, 18 candles and 18 gifts already. I also designed my invitation and planned the programme, too. But, all of that would just be in my dreams.

I know that, maybe, it could never happen now because there are a lot of things that should be accomplished first. But, I still hold on to my faith that I could celebrate my birthday with the most important people in my life, even in a simple party. You may think that I'm too shallow but for an only child who have employed parents, this is an important thing. Oh, well..

I believe that I deserve to have a celebration on my birthday, the day that I would be a lady. I would just wait and look forward for some miracles to happen. I know God has something for me and He would not fail me.

Happy, advanced, birthday to me!

Rainbow Rants

It's been so long since I've updated this blog! I missed my breath-taking background, my poems, prose and my sentiments. I feel like updating this site more often because this is just the perfect space for my rants. Yes, if you have read and visited my two other blogs, you will know how I love to rant about things.

But before that, I just wanted to share some of the major things that changed me in the past few months that I have missed my Blogger (in case you haven't read my other blogs).

I could compare it to a rainbow. Yes, that colorful lines that appear after the rain.

After all the darkness that I have undergone, there will always be a time that I would glow. I have been through a lot, but that doesn't stopped me. Sometimes, I felt like giving up. But, I just can't. And, I must not. There are people who still believes in me and as long as they are by my side, I would still hold on.

Problems are just spices of life. And I could say, I'm hot. Ya, know! These struggles would make us strong. As they say, there would be a rainbow, shining through, after the rain.

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Okay. I still need to give more. I'm so lame! I told you I would share a lot, but I just gave you an abstract thought. So now, I promise to pour all my feelings in this blog. I must not be conscious in what others may think of. This is my blog and I could write anything I want here! Yeah, whatever!

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